Found myself thinking on this not too long ago. I’ve just made a new account here (see my feed) and I was wondering what to do with it. It’s strange; as someone with frequent anxiety, even just the creation of this account was enough to cause a flair up — and I don’t mean that to try and get brownie points or pity pennies or whatever, I just mean that it caught me off guard.
So I’ve been trying to put myself together, as best as I can anyways (you’re always a project, ya know?), and I was at a moment where I could say to myself:
I’ve overcome sufficient suffering in order to thrust myself out into the world. (–Ya know, as you casually do; don’t you channel your inner Zarathustra when thinking?)
But the fact that my anxiety came to me–well, I was just wrong. But then, it became a real problem (always does with us Thinking-types) and I had to THINK about it.
UGH. (I’m horribly lazy….)
So I thought about it. Why would coming back to this give me so much anxiety? Is it because open inquiry itself is under attack on social media? Is it because every day I would open my Facebook feed and feel worse about myself? Was it because I never had the strength to SPEAK? Maybe. Maybe all three. Social Media became a real problem to solve for me. It’s a tool; how should it be used? What is the most moral way to wield its power? You see, the question is necessary if everything means something (though for you logic geeks, the converse does not hold). And so far, that principle has only made my life better.
AND A DIVINE ANGEL CAME DOWN UPON HIS HOLY CHARIOT (obviously) AND CHANTED TO ME: YOU WILL ONLY SPEAK TRUTH OUT INTO THE WORLD.
Huh. Must’ve been the mushrooms, or something I ate. But then, the words got to me. If I’m treating this tool morally, and this has the capability to reach a very large number of people, then I should speak always as though any and all of them would hear it at once and process it. And so I aim to speak such that everyone of them, if they thought about the words, would find them to be intuitively true and would function as an idea (a TOOL) that would better their lives.
So. That’s what I am going to do; I’m going to everything to share things here that are as strong and honest as possible. I hope that can bring meaning to at least one person other than me